Not all that...

today. Well, apart from my hair that turned out really great. Now, when Roseline does my hair it takes basically 12 hrs, when Elizabeth does it, it takes 4,5 hrs.... Guess where I'll be going next time??!?!
Haven't been feeling very well this week and today I'm really really ill! I think I have an eye infection - my left eye is all swollen and I can't see clearly...Suppose I should go to the doctor.

Spent the day at Elizabeth's salon. Me, being the very time focused European I am, was totally stressed out by the fact that every one who works there moves oh so slow! Elizabeth, from Kenya, laughed at me and said that I was "very Swedish"... I guess so but how can I not be since I've lived in Sweden almost all of my life?!?! She asked me if I spoke Swahili, which I don't. It sounds like a very cool language though so maybe I'll learn it. In Liberia, my country of birth, they speak English I believe.

Tomorrow Hannah is having her "glamorous Dinner" but I think I have to miss it. Am not feeling very glamorous and with my weird eye I can't wear any make up. I'll see how I'll feel tomorrow but I think I'll be staying in this week end.

Saturday night is also the Eurovision Song Contest, which is a huge deal here. One of the contestant, Bodies Without Organs (that I like btw) have a gay front man. Because of that there has been a huge protest organized by the Neo-Nazis and such crap... God, what is wrong with the world we live in today?!?! I mean people still starve to death and all some can think about is who the next guy is sleeping with...

I'm spending my Friday night in front of the TV, drinking an herbal potion I bought that supposedly helps against a cold :)

Take care

Song of the Day: To Have And To Hold - Depeche Mode

Champagne, champagne pt III

Had a lovely time last night with Torbjorn and Anna. We spent the last money from last years champagnetasting on a bottle of Bollinger RD 95. We also had a Palmer 98 and a lovely Verdicchio that Torbjorn brought.
Anna brought duck's liver (foie gras). I know it is immoral to eat it due to how it is produced but I really really like it.
There where some demonstrations against restaurants serving it last week.

Had a good week. Was supposed to have my hair done on Monday. Talked to Roseline last week and we decided that she was coming over on Monday morning. When I hadn't heard from her late Sunday night (had already taken my old braids out...) I got quite worried.
She didn't call nor answered the phone. I left a few messages and then I started looking for another place. Was lucky enough to get an appointment the same day. So for now I have my own hair for a while. I'm going back to have it rebraided tomorrow.

Went into town to check out the annual booksale. Picked up a few crime stories and a Lonely Planet guide to Loire, since it seems like that's where we'll spend out summer holiday.

Now the "Bird flu" has officially reached Sweden. I'm not really that worried yet since I don't hang around birds that much.

Today I think I'm about to catch a cold... Dr C was here last weekend and sneezed so I guess I got it from him....
He gave me a cool t-shirt that he bought in New York. That was nice of him I think.

Today I'm staying in I think :)

Take care

Song of the day: The Bottom Line - Depeche Mode

GOLD!!!

Yesss, Sweden beat Finland in the men's hockeygame 3 - 2!!!
Great and exciting game.
Have had a quiet week. Spent most of it at home fixing stuff in my apartment. I'm actually thinking about selling it. I have found a new area that is being built close to where I live today. But the apartments won't be ready until the end of 2007. I can't really plan that far ahead... I mean I don't even know what I shall wear tomorrow...
Had a massage session on Friday morning and d*mn it was painful but painful in a good way. My back is so much better know. So I can actually sit now :)

On Wednesday I'm having some friends over for a champagne tasting/dinner. Will be nice, even if I sometimes get very annoyed about certain things about one of them.
When I drink champagne I love to try new kinds. And it doesn't always have to be one f the "major" brands. And everything doesn't have to be by the book. I'd rather drink cheap champagne in a plastic cup with the right company then an expensive one with people I don't like... Well that's just me...

Had a nice week end. Friday Dr C came over for dinner. We had a nice time. We actually got to talking about us, not really The Talk but now I feel like we are getting a bit closer each time we met.
Saturday I met my family for dinner and Cabaret, the musical. It was so great!! It was set in a restaurant so at first we had dinner and then the actual show started.
afterwards I met with Hannah and some of her friends. One of the guys was that typical type of guy that I really hate. He was very "Mr Know-It-All" and apparently loved the sound of his own voice... And the worst was when he went of and bought a cocktail and came back and said "Isn't that the most gay drink you've ever seen?" I really hate that, it is so not funny! And he obviously laughed at his own jokes, most of the time he was the only one who laughed.

Last week I ordered new glasses, really cool ones. They should be done in about 2 weeks.
This week I'm also having my hair done. I made an estimate on how much money I've spent on my hair the last 10 years and I stopped when I got to 5000 euros. Well what can I say?!?! I might go into bankruptcy but I'll look great doing it ;)

Next week end sis, Hannah and me are having a Glamour dinner at her place. I have to find some recepies for the dinner. That'll be fun :)

Now I'll better get started one something....I just don't know what :) I'll watch Qeer Eye for the Straight Guy while I figure it out :)

Take care and a big shout out to sweetheart Mats who is turning 36 today.

Song of the day: Stupid Girls - Pink

A nice week

Had a blast at Maria's party! Got to catch up with old friends and made some new ones.

What's funny about the people I met is that some of them are part of the same internet network that I am. (No it's not about dating ;)) Shortcut. So I have "spoken" to them and known them for quite sometime but never met them face to face. Got to met some of them at the party and it was really great. They are even better in real life!
Ran into my ex and his new girlfriend and they are thinking about moving to Australia. They spent Christmas there and apparently fell totally in love with the country.

Was feeling quite low on Friday night so to cheer my self up I picked up a new jacket (retail therapy) and wore it to the party. Good friend Joachim called late Friday night and cheered me up.
Got home at around 4.30 in the morning...

Sunday, Hannah and myself went to a jewelry exhibition and had a late lunch.
Mondaynight at around 11 pm I felt like it was a good idea to start fixing my bathroom. I needed to put up my mirror again. Obviously I dropped it into the sink. I managed to save the mirror from breaking but not the shelf... so I had make up stuff all over the bathroom and I of course, hadn't closed my face powder box so I had face powder all over the bathroom too. My neighbors probably think I'm nuts :)

A huge shoutout to the Swedish hockey-girls. They did beat the US and gave Canada a good fight. Go girls! Sweden is actually doing quite well in the winter Olympics this year :)

Dr C is back from New York. He called yesterday and emailed me a link to an online photoalbum. Had some really nice pics! I am dying to go to New York, maybe I'll try to get there sometime in August or September. Suppose I should try to get a job first...

Seems like the Swedish hockey-men are going to beat Switzerland (5-1) he he he :)

Take care

Song of the day: Suffer Well - Depeche Mode

Valentines Day sadness

One of my favorite artists and most talented young R'n'B stars is gone:
Lynden David Hall
He died from cancer on Valentine's Day.
He made some amazing songs and in his memory I'll listen to them tonight and light a candle for him. Rest In Peace

On a more selfish note:
Had lunch with Dr C today since he is going to New York tomorrow and won't be back until Tuesday. We talked on the phone 3 times yesterday :) He was very happy about the CD actually.
Lunch was very nice and relaxed and I'm suddenly not so worried about what s going on with us. It feels very nice, cozy and relaxed. We have fun together and he likes me ... a lot - that I can tell. When he comes back from NY I'm going to bring up the dating site issue once and for all. I have the weekend to work up my nerve.

On Saturday Maria is having her birthdayparty and I got her some very nice flavored chocolates. Hm, I wonder what I shall wear to that party. Last years party was great. Back then I had a huge crush on Mats, wonder if he will be there this year.

And I have got some amazing comments and thought from my internetbuddies. Am so grateful for that :)

Take care of yourselves and the ones close to you

Song of the day: The Other Side - Lynden David Hall

On mute

He did call. Twice. My cellphone was in my bag. On mute. With low battery....
And left a message: "Happy Valentines Day, thanks for the CD. I'm home"

When I saw that he called it was so late so I sent him a textmessage.
So my misery yesterday was just temporary it seems. I'll call him later today and check if we can met tonight or tomorrow night :)

Today I'm going to call Roseline to have my hair done, the bank to start a new account and the job I applied for to see what up.

Take care

Song of the day: Step By Step - Whitney Houston

Misery loves company

or maybe not...

The week end was very nice. Friday drinks with Hannah and some friends at Marie Laveau and Saturday first concert with sis' choir then dinner at Hannah's and then Chris' birthdayparty. Met some people I haven't seen in a while, which was fun. Tried to get Dr C and his brother to join us but he was to tired.

On Thursday night Dr C and I spoke on the phone - nice as usual. Afterwards I worked up the nerve to tell him my thought on the dating site etc so I called him back and to my surprise there was no answer. I got a textmessage at about 1.30 pm saying that he had fallen asleep and he wanted me to call if I was awake. By then I had lost my nerve so I never called him back. All day Friday I was terrified - if I would talk to him I would obviously have to explain why I called back so shortly after we hung up the phone so I did the mature thing: total denial and call screening... He called twice on Friday but I didn't answer.
On Saturday we spoke on the phone and decided to meet up later.

After Chris' party on Saturday I went over to Dr C's place and spent 2 nights. Went home on Monday morning after breakfast. We had some very nice talks about a lot of stuff. He has a way of saying "we..." like "we didn't get the paper this morning" or "I want to be an at-home man but we have to have kids first"
(I suppose I should tell him that kids are not part of my future plans)

Monday was spent in Valentines Day contemplations: what should I do for Dr C. Eventually I decided to make him a CD with some of my favorite songs which I think was kind of nice. I mailed it to him so he should have gotten it today... And that's it! No calls, no messages no nothing! For once I have actually met someone I would like to spent a special Valentines day with - then there is not a d*mn thing!
And on Friday he is going to New York for the week end.

I so wonder what went wrong....

Today I went to a fashion show. The husband of a friend of mine was showing his work. It was very very nice and I am definetly going to buy some stuff of his.

Take care

Song of the day: So High - Toni Braxton

A new point of view

Went to check out new glasses today. Found an amazing pair from Miu Miu that I think I'm going to buy. I borrowed 3 pairs of glasses to try on at home so by Saturday I must decide.

Glasses are really expensive stuff so the pair I choose must be the perfect pairs. Had some trouble with my eye today but the medicine I got is helping - good thing.

Started planning another champagnedinner with AnnaT today. I would love to try the Louise (Pommery) but she wanted to go for Bollinger instead. We'll see what we end up drinking. Sometimes I think she is a bit to much into brands and not so willing to try new stuff. Just because it's expensive doesn't mean it has to be great... There is this wine I really really like: it's Portuguese and only costs about 5 euros...but it's great!

Am back to my more skeptical and not so romantic self today. Checked the dating site yesterday and oh yes just like I thought Dr C is still logging on there. Actually he was online when I checked. So I suppose he is looking for someone else then. Too bad!
I have decided that a mixed CD is to personal, so I'll try to come up with some other idea. I mean seriously, why should I commit to him when he is still on the look out for some girlfriend material!?!
Well, like my friend Per always says: "Judge a person by their actions not by their words"
I guess it's time for The List again. Every time I have to make a difficult decision I write a list of pro's and con's. At the moment the positive things about Dr C are predominant but there is the Dating site issue which grows into a bigger problem the more I think about it. I wonder how he would react if I just ask him straight out. I should do that since communication is the key but I'm not sure I am ready for the answer yet....

Well, we'll see what happens :)

Take care!

Song of the day: Refuge (When it's cold outside) - John Legend

An eye for an eye...

Went to the eyedoctor today to have my weird eye checked out. He looked for ages and then he grunted, walked ut of the room and stayed out for about 5 mins... I got quite worried actually. He came back and told me that he does not know what is wrong! He gave me eyedrops that I'm supposed to take at night. That's it! I mean this man has spent at least 5 years in med school and all he can say is "I don't know"...and I had to pay for it.

But on the good side: before the eyedoctor appointment I had lunch with Dr C :) I called him early, well what is early for me 9 o'clock, and asked him if he was available for lunch. He actually sounded happy that I called... I like that!

I have made up my mind about Valentines Day. I'm going to make him a cd with some of my favorite songs. I think that is pretty neat! I hope he will enjoy it. Now, the question is should I ask him out on Valentines Day or should I wait for him to ask me??? I'd rather have dinner at home then go out I think. But I'll wait until Sunday. If he hasn't said anything by then I'll bring it up.

Right now there is a show called "Sex Inspectors" on TV were they help couples whose sexlife is practically gone. Interesting and quite funny actually. They are giving tips on how to seduce your partner and spice up your sexlife. Some tips are really good... ;)

Did you know that the average person spends 336 hours kissing in a lifetime...Sounds great :)

Sweet dreams!

Song of the Day: Don't let go (Love) - En Vogue

PS I gave up the crossword and started another one, that isn't going so well either!

A Romantic in denial

Ok, I admit: I'm a romantic in denial :)
I think I have decided what to for Valentines day: I'm going to send a bunch of tulips to his job... I think or maybe to his house, haven't really decided yet :)
No, I think to his house is better....

I am beginning to realize that I am quite the romantic. When we had dinner on Saturday (candles and wines...) I didn't feel as uncomfortable as I usually do in that situation.

Went to Franska Matsalen with Dr C on Friday. It wasn't really all that great. The food was ok and the service was actually really bad from time to time. We started with a glass of champagne and the it took such a long time before we could even order. When I pay 100 euros for a dinner I do expect quite good service. For example I don't think I saw "our" waitress smile even once... instead she started yelling at another waitress in front of the entire restaurant... so not ok!

But we had a nice time. He has a way of looking at me and smiling that makes me go weak to my knees - good thing I was sitting down during dinner ;)
Afterwards we went back to my place and had a drink and then off to bed. He was supposed to play squash the next day. He left and I stayed in bed for a while longer.
Saturday afternoon I went over to his place and we (well I) made dinner. He was invited to a party arranged by his volleyball club. We met up with two of his friends, both of them really nice, and went to the party. There were mostly guys there so the two others were quite disappointed so we left early. Went onto Marie Laveau, quite nice bar actually, for some drinks.

Today I've spent most of the day in bed, his bed, working on the Sundaypapers crossword.
Now I'm matching Charlie's Angels II - enough entertainment for a Sunday night I think.

And I've also closed my account on the internet dating site. So we'll see what happens...

Take care

Song of the day: Ordinary People - John Legend

A table for two

Seems like the dinner at Franska Matsalen will be just me and Dr C. Asked him about it yesterday and he didn't seem to be all against the idea.
As I came home from the gym yesterday I saw that he had called. Was happy and called him back. Him and his brother had had dinner and he wanted me to join them. That was sweet I think. I asked him to give me a raincheck and he agreed.
I hope he is still on for the dinner on Friday. Maybe then I'll have the opportunity to start "The Talk".
Applied for a really cool job today. I so hope I get it because I'm so sick of being at home all the time. I've been unemploied for 1 month now - I can't belive people who do this for years. I would go crazy!!!

Well, I'll better start focusing on something other that Dr C for the rest of the night :)

Take care
Song of the day: A Bad Bad thing - Chris Isaak

Clumsy...

I'm not the only clumsy one: Read in the paper today about a guy in Fitzwilliams museum in Cambridge who stumbled on his shoelace and fell. While falling he dragged down some priceless vases from the Qingdynasty... Actually, every time I'm in a museum I keep wondering what would happen if I'd break something. Nothing happened to this guy, apart from the shame and disgrace :)

I just watched the ending of the dumbest TV-show I've ever seen. It's called "7th Heaven" and is about a priests family....all about family values and no sex before marriage and such.
Anyway, it was about Valentines Day celebrations. So I realized that Valentines is coming up soon. Am I supposed to do something for Dr C??? He used to live in the US where Valentines is a huge deal.
I've never celebrated Valentine when I've been in a relationship. Nor did I do the "Bitter Single Woman"- thing and gathered my girls to burn ex-boyfriends stuff and nag about being single.
So what does he expect? I could maybe send flowers to his job. That's always nice and kind of fun or I can take him out to dinner. Or maybe he will take me out...That would be nice.
But what if I do this big thing and he does nothing. How embarrassed wouldn't I be then?!?!

Yhe weekend was very nice. Was out with Hannah on Saturday, just spent the evening catching up at Sturehof.
This Friday we are going to have dinner at Franska Matsalen at the Grand Hotel. It's really expensive but it's probably worth it. It's supposed to be one of the best restaurants in town and they are closing for good by the end of February. Maybe I should ask Dr C to join us. If he comes he will be the only man there :) He'll probably enjoy that...

Take care

Song of the day: A Long Walk - Jill Scott

A good laugh

I do believe you need at least one a day. Have had a few good laughs this last week :) First on Wednesday night when I was having dinner, wine and some very nice talks with Tove at Bistro Jarl. We then went on to Riche for a few drinks.

I realized that 20-something men have turned it into a kind of sport to try to pick up 30-something women. I mean I don't in general mind people trying to pick each other up in bars and nightclubs, not at all actually, but a 20-something guy is not really "my cup of tea"...
Two brothers were after Tove and myself and they kept saying this like "I think you're hot even if you are older" OK, a bit of advice: Few women like to be reminded of their age, especially by someone younger. And no, you won't be getting any by doing just that!

I'm planning for the annual summer holiday. This year, if I get my way, we will be renting a boat, a penichette, and cruise on the canals and rivers of France. I'm not really a boat person but on a river land is close so if anything happens I can swim to shore and safety. Seriously, if they rent it to people who have absolutely no experience it can't be that hard...
There so many parts of France I haven't seen yet. I'd love to see the castles of Loire or enjoy the supposedly amazing food in Burgundy.

Had another good laugh yesterday. I was on my way back from the optician, walking by one of the poshest restaurants in town, all suit-and-tie-business-lunches. I carried 50 tulips wrapped in paper. Just in front of me a woman slips on an icy spot and falls over. Some suit and tie-guys inside the restaurant stopped eating and watched her struggle to get up. I went up to her to try to help her, but the only result was that I slipped and fell too...Tulips flying all over as I landed on top of her. By this time two of the men from inside the restaurant and one waiter comes running out to help us both up. They where smiling, I suppose it must have looked kind of fun. I got up and started picking up my tulips, one of the men helped me. The woman asked if they could get her a cab. The waiter guy, the perfect gentleman said: Of course and escorted us into the restaurant where he offered us a cup of coffee and a chance to warm up. As I was leaving, quite embarrassed, one of the men came running after me with the last tulip that he had found. He said: "Your flower, miss! Wouldn't want you to be without it." And as he turns around to walk back into the restaurant HE slips on the same icy spot. The waiter come running back outside but this guy gets up, quite dignified and says: "May I suggest some sand on that spot."
We all got quite a good laugh out of that :)

Today I'm going to clean my apartment and I have found two jobs I'm going to apply for and then I need to write a marketing plan for My Own Company....

Take care!

Song of the day: Outrageous - Artful Dodger

I-Tunes rocks :)

Got this from Jezz's blogg:

First open Itunes or which ever music program you use then answer honestly:

- How many songs? 720
Then sort by
title:
First song: (Sex) Love Is What We're Makin' - R Kelly
Last song: Your Love Is King - Will Young

length:
Shortest: Bionic Woman (Interlude) - Robyn 0:16
Longest: Purple Rain - Prince 8:40

Album:
First: 3D - TLC
Last: Ultra - Depeche Mode

Artist:
First: 10 cc
Last: Xibit

Five most played:
1. Dirrty - Christina Aguilera (I'm embarrassed)
2. Cry Me a River - Justin Timberlake (WHAT?!?!?!)
3. Alright - John Legend (finally :))
4. La Bomba - Ricky Martin (well, he is hot but still....)
5. Yeah - Usher feat. Lil' John (at least you can dance to it)

Let I-Tunes choose a random song:
Good Riddance (Time of your life) - Green Day (my dignity is saved ;))

Search by:

"sex" found 6 songs
"love" found 33 songs
"death" found 0 songs
"you" found 68 songs
"chewbacca"found 0 songs

Take care
Song of the day: Isn't there Someone - Luther Vandross

A lump in my throat

Have had a lump in my throat all day today. A dear friend of mine lost her mother last night. She wrote the most amazingly beautiful email to all of us. I know she'll be fine, she is a lot stronger than she knows but it's still so sad.

I, on the other hand, made my second modeling appearance today, as a man actually :) It's for a medical magazine - they are going to show how hard it is to tell the difference between women and men. The photographer told me I looked like a gangster rapper. I know he meant it in a good way.
It was really fun! And I made some money which I obviously spent almost immediately (I did mention that I have some shopping issues, didn't I?!?!) on warmer winter boots. Winter is back in Stockholm and with a vengeance...it's absolutely freezing, windy and the snow is now falling sideways. Hate that!

Had lunch with Dr C on Wednesday. We went to this Lebanese restaurant and he got sick as we where leaving... We had a nice time during lunch though and at moments like these I can't imagine being without him...
I hope I won't have to....

Meet the parents...

Spent Friday at Locanda with M. She always calls when she needs something and this time she wanted to know why she and her boyfriend wasn't invited to the birthday party on Saturday night. It's not my party so how would I know. Oscar isn't the most focused person so I think he just sent out some random invitations and hoped world would be passed around. I told her she was most probably welcome to come but they ended up not going...
The restaurant was ok, the service was extremely slow. I mean it is not ok for it to take an hour from finishing the maincourse until asked if we wanted to order dessert... The food was ok but the portions were quite small. They do, however, have a very large selections of drinks so if I go back it'll be for the drinks not the food.

Saturday was Oscars party. It was nice but some of his friends are really strange. They have quite... Liberal opinions about most things and we don't always see eye to eye.
It was cool to see Ylva and Fredrik there, especially since they are about to have another baby. According to the doctor the baby was supposed to come on Saturday...

I left early to go and see Dr C. He was away all day Saturday playing a volleyball game. We spent the evening watching a horrible series, something about a serial killer who killed women by leaving spiders in their beds... Horrible and it gave me nightmares.

Sunday we got up quite late and I was trying to solve a Sudoku, you know one of those puzzles with numbers in them. They are quite addictive :)
So suddenly he tells me that his parents are coming over. They have been to IKEA and are dropping of some stuff. Apparently it was a bit more than that. His brother was turning 30 and his parents were coming over for dinner and birthday cake. If he had told me that I would have left... But no, there I am in the same clothes as the day before, no make up and his mum walks in...I don't think she was very impressed! His parents seems nice though and his brother is really cool. We had dinner, quite awkward I must admit. And then we build a dresser and two bookshelf he bought.
After they left we cleaned the place (or he cleaned and I was working on that d*mn sudoku) and then off to bed.

All and all, the weekend was nice. No Talk but like HappyButterfly said; I'm not sure if I'm ready for the answer. And like they say: If you don't want to know - don't ask :)

I'll just go with the flow and see where it takes me...

Take care!

Song of the day: Can't get you off my mind - Lenny Kravitz

All made up

Went to MAC yesterday for a make up event. It was really nice to meet all of the Beautyqueen again, some old friend and some new ones.
(Beautyqueen VIP is one of the Shortcut best clubs. Have actually met some of my dearest friends through Shortcut).

Anyway, my makeup theme was all about fab glam and color. The make upartist worked with blue, purple and black. I was very happy with the result so I ended up buying most of the eyeshadows she used on me. "If I want it, I need it" ;)

Stepbro's mum got me an Andrea Bocelli cd for Christmas. I don't mind Andrea Bocelli but it's not really my type of music so I changed it yesterday and got Mary J Blige - The Breakthrough instead. It's really great and she is so fab.

This week has been all about work. Met with Peder, my mentor, on Tuesday. I took him out for lunch and he has new great ideas for me that I'm looking into. Then I've spent most of the time around the house writing my business plan and updating my cv. I tend to spend a lot of time on layout and ...less time on contence. Must do something about that....

Wednesday I got a surprise call from a friend I haven't seen in ages. It was an nice surprise so we are going out for dinner tonight. I can't help wondering what she wants. She is the type of person that only calls when she needs something from you. And she is an expert in forgetting favors rendered.....Well, will be interesting too see what's up.
This is part of the reason why we really haven't seen eachother in a while. I got sick of helping her out and never getting anything in return. She and her boyfriend are experts in complaining about what other people do and don't but that they should arrange something or invite people over.... would never happen.
Anyway, we are trying this new restaurant tonight that has gotten great reviews, Locanda. I'll get back to you on the restaurant.
Tomorrow Oscar is having his 35th birthdayparty. So today I must find a nice gift for him. He likes warhistory and fantasybooks. I thought I'd pick up a dvd of a book for him.

Oh, my new lamp is up. After a few attempts I got it up. It's just one small problem. If someone really tall comes over like Dr C, they will hit their head. I can barely walk under the lamp and I'm only 1m69cm.... But I like the lamp and the light in my apartment is som much better than before :)

No Talk updates to report. Haven't seen Dr C this week since we both have been busy in the evenings. But next time I see him I'll get some wine in me to work up a nerve and bring it up.

Ok, better get on with everything now.

Take care

Song of the day: Gonna Breakthrough - Mary J Blige

A Dr C-weekend :)

Spent almost all weekend with Dr C.
Friday me and sis were supposed to got to NK and their annual sale but when we got there and saw the queue going all around the block we decided not to....
Instead we met up with Henrik and went to an art exhibition (Dutch painters)instead and then we had a late lunch with some wine :)
On my way home I rented 2 movies (De-Lovely and Collateral 3,5/5) when Dr C suddenly called. He was back from his skiing and was on his way to pick up some sushi. He asked if I wanted to bring the movies and come over to his place for sushi.
We had a nice time watching Collateral and eating sushi from the place on the corner. Didn't have the nerve to bring up The Talk, maybe I need to drink some wine first ;)

Saturday he had his Portuguese exam so he got up at 7.30 which is crazy in a Saturday. Sent me a textmessage asking if we could have lunch after he was done.
I went home to change clothes and shower and went back into town for lunch. He wanted carpaccio so we went to this Italian place. It was by far the worst food I've ever had!! And to make matters worse the actually charged extra for the clothes check. I really hate when they do that at restaurants. I mean I pay enough for the food and wine and then I have to pay to leave my jacket. AND they don't even give you the choice.... it's mandatory!

After lunch we took a walk around town, I had to pick up some wine for the movienight at Jocke's place. Asked Dr C if he wanted to join us and he said yes. I think he had a nice time.
We went out to Jocke's, he lives quite far from town, and went shopping for food and then back to his place and made dinner. Or I made dinner and the guys watched me....

We watched Sin City (3/5), is was cool but a bit to much violence for me.

On Sunday we got up quite late and made brunch: pancakes, eggs and bacon. And then we watched War of the Worlds (2/5) and Lord of the Rings - The Return of the King (4,5/5) I love that movie! We had a late dinner and then he went home.
I do enjoy being on my own and after a whole weekend with I'm it was actually nice to be left alone. At least for a while now I miss him :)

Today I'm finally putting my new lamp up and the I'm going to write my business plan for My Own Company and then I'm going to clean my apartment. Or at least that is my plan for the day. I'll see how far I'll get :)

"It doesn't matter how big or small you are, what matters is your time and what you make of it"

Take care

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Exclusivity

How do you know when you're dating exclusively??

I know for a fact that Dr C is still logging on to the dating website where we met. How do I know? Well, I admit I log on to... but only because I know that he is logging on there. Logical huh?!?!
I check and if he has been online then I think it is ok for me to log on too, that is if he has been online.
I wonder if he is looking for someone else. I know for a fact that he was online today AND he is away skiing in his parents house in the mountains. So, do they have internet access in the house or did he go out of his way to find it??? If he went out of his way exactly why?? Maybe I should just end it here and now so he won't hurt me that bad. I would so miss him if we stopped seeing eachother but I do not want to hear the words "I have found someone else..." I miss him now and he is just away skiing with is family...

I suppose we should have The Talk. My best friend Carl, who is from the US, always tells me about The Talk: it's apparently after the 5th date ( that we passed months ago) you should talk about the future of the relationship and decide if you should be exclusive or date others.
We have not had The Talk yet, wonder if we ever will. We do, however, have sleepovers at least twice a week. He has met most of my friends and my parents. At New Years he was at another party but came over to our party at 4 o'clock in the morning and then we spent the night at my parents place. He stayed on the next day and helped us clean up the place.

A thought just struck me: maybe he is checking the website to see if I still log on... Just takes a little work and you can check without actually having to log on.

Shit, I supposed I need to bring this up but I don't know how, where and when. The best way might be over dinner after some wine at my place so if he dumps me I won't need to get on the subway home.
Oh yes, I love exploring the more paranoid side of myself.

Well, if dumps me I will always remember him fondly *not*

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